I normally post once or twice then I forget to post again but I keep thinking about posting but I don’t. It’s about the same with like writing thank you cards for stuff my daughter and I get from family and friends. I receive an item: card, check, or gift and announce to myself that I will write a thank you note tonight so I don’t forget! I’m all happy thinking that I will do this for them because they so lovingly sent me things and all. But as luck would have it I forget or get distracted with some not nearly as important task such as checking facebook or watchin an entire canceled show one season at a time regardless of how long ago it was actually aired and now has no relevance in the real world.
This happens more often than I would like, but every time I think about writing I feel quite guilty for not being prompt with my reply. Soon enough it is 5 months later and I still have not written a single thank you note. I feel really really bad and want to tell the person how much I do actually appreciate them regardless of how long it has been from the time I received the gift so I sit down to write the notes… but I can’t remember exactly if I did write some thank you notes to people and I don’t want them to be confused if I send a thank you note for something that I already wrote a thank you note for. They will be all “ why is she sending a thank you note for something she already thanked me for? Is she trying to get me to send more things to her? Have I forgotten something?” Then if I send out a thank you note to someone but for get to thank another person and they talk to each other and find out that one was left out from my thank you’s and they start the “well, that Amber! I can’t believe she sent you one and not me?! She must value my gifts less. How rude” Then I will be given the eye and gossiped about at the old peoples homes about how I don’t value them and their gifts and never sent a thank you. And I don’t want those things to happen. So, I don’t write any thank you notes and hope people just forgot that I didn’t send them thank you’s and still think I am a nice and caring person who values them and their time because I do or I would not be such a mess thinking about all the thank you’s I didn’t send.
The point is I’m like that with Blogging too. I write a post or two and stop…. Then I go to write another but I feel bad for just posting now after so many months have passed that the people that aren’t actually reading my post will some how be upset that I made them wait so long and the stuff I write about will be dumb and they will hate me more. Sort of like this blog here. So instead of blogging I read other blogs and admire the owners’ ability to blog and entertain and I think about how I would be a much better blogger if I wasn’t a full time single mom and a full time student and cursed with ADD and extreme laziness.
All in all I want to blog more so maybe I will.
Case in point I said I was going to post pictures of old art but didn’t so I didn’t want to blog cause I said I was going to do that and didn’t want to disappoint… well so I didn’t blog… I have issues… really. So my next blog will be later so I can update you on all the coolness of my awesome school, which I am so loving! Yay school!
